Writing is hard

Earlier tonight I wrote most of a blog entry and it all got deleted. So I’m finding it especially hard to commit to writing tonight.

I’m finding it hard to commit to writing in general.

I really wish I had a regular work schedule. Having a routine would make it so much easier to find a regular time to commit to writing everyday. I’m amazed by people who find that self discipline.

I need to treat writing like going to work or school. I never call off work or skip school. I really want to get myself in gear.

TV is very distracting. So are pets. And snacks. And my own habit of procrastinating.

I want to write a story involving magic. But if you are going to write a story with magic you need to have a complete understanding of the rules of magic in your world. I have been watching a lot of Once Upon a Time. And while I do love that show there is so much inconsistency in how magic works on the show. Even J.K. Rowling made a couple mistakes in her writing.

That in itself makes me nervous. If J.K. Rowling can make mistakes then how I can I even start to construct my own rules for a world with magic? And what kind of world should it be? An alternate universe? Or a real world situation where magic is added to it?

And putting aside the complications of writing about a world with magic I don’t even have a concept yet. I feel completely uninspired. I think that’s another problem that I’m letting hold me back. That even if I make time to sit down and write I will come up with nothing. That I’ll just be wasting time.

I keep wondering about what I should do as far as pursuing a higher education or career. I majored in theatre and ended up regretting it. I’m thinking about going to school for library science. I like working at the library I’m at now but that doesn’t necessarily mean I’m going to find a job in this field I’ll be happy in. Then I think what if I pursue grad school for creative writing? But the same thing could happen with that. And in that case a job at the end of grad school seems much less likely.

I’m feeling uncertain about a lot of things.

Writing still helps though.

Hug

There is a lot I would like to talk about on here. Things that have happened or things that are just on my mind. Not a lot that I really can talk about.

I'll say this - Family and friends are important.

School is going okay. I'm still not entirely sure if grad school is something I want to pursue. But I know I need to be doing more than working part time at minimum wage. It's just not enough on any sort of level.

I feel like it has been so long since I wrote in here and so much has happened since I wrote in here. And because of that I should have so much to say. I should have profound thoughts and beautiful prose. But really, I've got nothing.

Go hug someone.