My first entry

Hi everyone,

I have decided to give this another try. You know, writing. I have always enjoyed writing and I've always thought that if I could just sit down and commit to it then maybe I could make something of it. But the problem is actually sitting down and doing it. They say that most writer's just starting out have tons and tons of crap just waiting to get out. And that you have to write for days and days and weeks and weeks and months and months before you even get anywhere near anything remotely worth reading. So here I am at Day 1...

The problem is I know I am my own worst enemy when it comes to committing to anything. I have tried starting countless writing projects. I've tried losing weight several times. I've tried sticking to good, smart healthy habits but they never stick. A lot of the time I give myself ridiculously unrealistic expectations that of course I don't reach. And because I don't get it exactly right then I give up. Just like that.

So in starting this blog I am not going to promise that I will write in it everyday. I'm not even going to promise that this time will be different than any other time I've tried to commit to writing. All I am saying is that I am trying. I'm going to come back to this blog as often as possible. Sometimes I'll write about what happened to me that day. Sometimes I'll write random crap.

The main reason I've decided to start a blog rather than write in my own private journal is accountability. Like I said I am my own worst enemy when it comes to committing to writing. So I'm starting this blog in the hopes of getting some feedback. Whether it's actually about my writing or just someone saying Hi I read it. I'm hoping that if someone other than me is reading what I'm writing then maybe I'll be encouraged to stick with it. Maybe.

To be honest I'm really nervous about starting this blog. I'm nervous that this will be my one and only entry and like many times before I will just give up and forget all about it. I'm nervous that people won't read it. I'm nervous that people will read it and think that it's crap. Or be taking bets on how long this lasts. I have so many assumptions of what people think of me and I'm sure it's mostly me just getting in my own head.

I never share my writing. I always feel like I need to make sure it's perfect before I let anyone see it. And I've realized that that is just stupid. If I'm ever going to get better at this then I need feedback. I need to let people see my writing even if it's crap. So here it is. One blog entry at a time.

Thanks for reading :)
-Jen