One Type of Outlook

There are people that just radiate positivity. They are all rainbows and butterflies and unicorns are real and every day is a gift and being around them automatically makes you and everyone else around a million times happier.

How the hell does someone do that?

I'd love to be a positive person. I'd love to be the type of person that makes others say "She's so fun!" and "she always brings out the best in me" and "she always make the most of any given situation."
Trouble is I am nothing like that.

I assume the worst. In situations and usually in people also. And in myself.

I contemplate every possible outcome of almost every situation. If A happens then X person will be upset but if I do B then Y person just might take it wrong. And what if I can't do C? Then I'll have to do D, E and F and then everyone from A-Z will hate me forever. Am I overthinking this?

Some people can just go for things. They take a chance on others or themselves. They stop all the wondering. They don't dwell on the past or worry about the future. They just live.

Can anyone really change? The fundamental part of what makes them who they are.

Maybe that person who cut in front of me on the highway had a good reason.
Maybe they had an emergency.
Maybe they just had the worst day of their life.
Maybe they didn't mean to.

Maybe they are just a bitch.

Then again, maybe there are already enough positive people. Maybe some people just need to be negative to create some balance in the world. Hey, that's a fairly positive view of things.

2018 - the year of positivity. Oh who am I kidding?

2018 - the year the bitch got shit done.